JM de Guzman Opens Up About Addiction and Rehabilitation
- January 22, 2018
- INSIDESHOWBIZ.PH TEAM
After disappearing from the showbiz scene for a long time, JM de Guzman finally opens up about the challenges he went through and the mistakes he made along the way. After playing roles in independent films and eventually fully rising to fame through the daytime drama Angelito Ang Batang Ama last 2011, JM de Guzman became a household name and was considered by many as one of the most promising young actors of his generation. His biggest break so far is playing Anthony in the Cinema One Originals 2014 entry That Thing Called Tadhana. One of the highest grossing independent Filipino films of all time, breaching ₱134 million gross revenue in under 3 weeks.
That Thing Called Tadhana paved the way for more projects for JM. Unfortunately, all these blessings were cut short after he was accused of having erratic behaviors during tapings due to drug abuse.
For his comeback this 2018, JM fearlessly opened up about his struggles with drug abuse, mental health, and more. It was in 2015 when JM first entered rehabilitation which he admitted that he didn’t take seriously and that he manipulated them into thinking that he was getting better even though he’s not. “Hindi ako naging sincere and genuine actually sa pag-confront ko sa issues ko nung first rehab ko. Gusto ko lang makalabas. Galit na galit ako, malungkot na malungkot ako deep inside,” he narrated.
All these pretensions in the rehabilitation center eventually backfired when he felt guilt over the whole thing. “Hindi kinaya ng guilt ko. Parang niloloko ko lang ang mga taong naniwala sa akin. Kinain ako ng kunsensiya ko so inamin ko. Natanggal ako dun sa show na hindi naman yun yung original na plan na sinabi sa akin and nakadagdag yun dun sa pain.”
After he was killed off the show that he was the lead star of, JM underwent depression and once again entered rehabilitation in Self-Enhancement for Life Foundation sa Talisay, Batangas. According to the actor, this rehabilitation healed him and his whole family as well.
“Family ko kasi and me parang nagheal together. We went through processes na talagang intense. Nagresolve kami nung mga issues and yung support system namin sa isa’t isa mas matibay. And para sa akin sobrang blessing yun na kahit andun ako sa baba may naayos na mga bagay na akala ko mahirap gawin before.”
JM also revealed that he started using drugs at the age of 18. “Mentally, emotionally, physically, rock bottom na eh. Di ko na mai-angat ang sarili ko. Wala na, paranoia ko, hallucinations ko, hindi na ako makagalaw ng walang drugs. Iyak ako nang iyak, yung depression, lumala yun mga problema.”
The actor also gave advice for the youth who want to try drugs. “Sobra siyang manipulative na bagay that will lure you into thinking na sobrang okay yung pupuntahan mo na state. And then kukunin niya lahat ng malapit sa puso mo, lahat ng mahal mong gawin, lahat ng bina-value mo and sa huli hindi mo din naman siya masisisi kasi bagay lang siya. So huhulihin niya yung self-respect mo rin, yung pagmamahal mo sa sarili mo.”
JM is thankful for the second chance he has been given. “Sobrang thankful po ako dun. I really don’t think I deserve it pero sobrang thankful pa rin po ako, siguro po may purpose po ako. Sobrang supportive po ng lahat ng tao sa paligid ko, ABS-CBN, Star Magic, yung program.”
“Ilang beses akong bumagsak, ilang beses akong walang-wala o zero talaga pero yung love niyo, di nagbago, yung support niyo, yung hope niyo for me, di nagbago rin. Para sa akin sobrang espesyal ng love niyo.”
JM is set to graduate from the rehab after he finishes the aftercare program.